XII: [ visual | location: Shelley ] Would you like me to lie to you now?

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

Her sarcophagus. Her resting place. She had gone to visit it mere moments ago, as a means of connecting with a past she can no longer return to.

Too many things to ponder on. Too long had she been held in this place, against her will, against her desire. And she can find no means to alleviate her increasing discomfort. Her recent bout with Spike, and even with the vampire leader, had helped little to comfort her. Her conversations with the younger Wesley only confirmed her thoughts.

She had no purpose here. She had no place here.

And yet this realization is not new.

Illyria reaches out to touch her sarcophagus - when the glitch hits.

She watches, disturbed, as her skin, her armor changes. How can this be? She had no desire to look like Winifred. Illyria had not willed it. She throws her head back, closes her eyes - nothing.

She grits her teeth as suspicion begins to gnaw at her. Lashing out, she pushes her sarcophagus away until it crashes and destroys one of the walls.

Amidst the dust and debris, Illyria stands panting. Her tablet, attached to her wrist now, records her movements as she begins to inspect her borrowed form.

Comments

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

[ she makes a noise borne out of frustration. ] So many rules. So many things that don't matter before, but do now. Things that I have to do but I don't understand why they're important.

[Voice]

[bigbad]

If it helps, humans don't usually understand either.

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

Then why do they do it? Why do you consider it important?

[Voice]

[bigbad]

Which part? Acting human?

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[Voice]

[bigbad]

I guess it's better than the alternative.

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

Alternative.

[Voice]

[bigbad]

Being a monster.

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

[ she pauses for a moment, thinking of her history lessons with wesley before. ] Weak as your kind is, some still have the propensity for violence.

[Voice]

[bigbad]

That's not really what I mean.

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

Then what is?

[Voice]

[bigbad]

It's hard to explain. Violence isn't inhuman. But not caring about anything, that is. I think.

[Voice]

[revivedqueen.livejournal.com]

[ silence. ]

Something to think about.