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034: [ location : the sky ] the blues walked in and met me
It's not the first time Buffy's woken up with a shiny new set of memories, but the other times haven't been like this. The other times she hadn't found out that she's a monster. A vampire. A thing.
Losing her powers for two months, the ordeal with Angelus, losing Dean, going through that cruel glitch with Ethan, losing Giles for the second time... the combined weight of the past year spent in Taxon is finally beginning to take its toll on her, and in epic fashion.
Which is why she's decided to take matters into her own hands. Literally. Anyone looking up at the sky will see an odd, vaguely discernible blur, flying into an invisible barrier, impacting hard and then bouncing off again, only to repeat the action. Over and over. She's trying to break through the wall, and it isn't working.
[ooc: canon bump to issue #33, but before the big Twilight reveal. Gonna be slowtagging on this one due to hiatus, but there we go. ALSO she has her tablet with her, so is contactable.]
Losing her powers for two months, the ordeal with Angelus, losing Dean, going through that cruel glitch with Ethan, losing Giles for the second time... the combined weight of the past year spent in Taxon is finally beginning to take its toll on her, and in epic fashion.
Which is why she's decided to take matters into her own hands. Literally. Anyone looking up at the sky will see an odd, vaguely discernible blur, flying into an invisible barrier, impacting hard and then bouncing off again, only to repeat the action. Over and over. She's trying to break through the wall, and it isn't working.
[ooc: canon bump to issue #33, but before the big Twilight reveal. Gonna be slowtagging on this one due to hiatus, but there we go. ALSO she has her tablet with her, so is contactable.]
[location: outside castle summers]
Spike frowns. "Where are they coming from?" It can't be good if it got her this worked up.
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
And with that her eyes fill with tears, ones she's been holding back for a while now.
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
"I'm really glad you're here." Yes, that's a very selfish thing to say, but she can't help it.
[location: outside castle summers]
[location: outside castle summers]
For a moment she loses herself in it, forgetting all the pain and grief temporarily, until something reconnects in her brain, and she pulls back suddenly. Kirk. Oh, god. She's speechless for a second, shellshocked.
[location: outside castle summers]
Then she pulls away and all of Spike's doubts that really should have kept him from kissing her in the first place come crashing back. "...I shouldn't have done that," he says quietly. He doesn't stop holding her, though.
[location: outside castle summers]
When Spike died, there was all this unresolved emotion - she'd finally learnt to trust him, she cared for him, she could let him hold her and feel safe, she could spend an entire night just looking into his eyes... and then he was gone. She never got to have that with him. Being around him now makes her confused, awakens all these old feelings, feelings she really shouldn't be having, because she's with someone else, who she loves.
It takes her a moment to find her voice again, and when she does, she steps back out of his arms. "No, it's not-- I'm sorry, Spike, I-- I can't." She really has to say this, and she should have said it sooner. "I'm seeing someone."
[location: outside castle summers]
It doesn't matter. She's with someone else. He looks away. "Sorry. I mean... I won't do it again or anything."
[location: outside castle summers]
"Don't," she answers, too quickly. "Don't apologize. It's my fault." And now, because she doesn't know what to do, other than run away, that's more or less what she intends to do. "I should... I should go."
[location: outside castle summers]