taxonomites | 034: [ location : the sky ] the blues walked in and met me

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034: [ location : the sky ] the blues walked in and met me

It's not the first time Buffy's woken up with a shiny new set of memories, but the other times haven't been like this. The other times she hadn't found out that she's a monster. A vampire. A thing.

Losing her powers for two months, the ordeal with Angelus, losing Dean, going through that cruel glitch with Ethan, losing Giles for the second time... the combined weight of the past year spent in Taxon is finally beginning to take its toll on her, and in epic fashion.

Which is why she's decided to take matters into her own hands. Literally. Anyone looking up at the sky will see an odd, vaguely discernible blur, flying into an invisible barrier, impacting hard and then bouncing off again, only to repeat the action. Over and over. She's trying to break through the wall, and it isn't working.

[ooc: canon bump to issue #33, but before the big Twilight reveal. Gonna be slowtagging on this one due to hiatus, but there we go. ALSO she has her tablet with her, so is contactable.]

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It's not a glitch, it's me. I don't even know what I am anymore. [ she doesn't have the energy to hit the wall again, and she sounds very much like she's on the verge of tears. ]

And you... they'll just take you away. Just like everyone else. And I can't... I can't do this anymore.

[ kirk's never been very good with emotions. he stumbles and trips over words and is better at displaying how he feels with actions rather than with words (which, in a way, has him rather understanding of buffy's reaction, even if he can't see what sparked her to respond in such a manner). with gaila, whenever things got like this, to a point where his throat started feeling tight and that general feeling of discomfort with a situation set in, he'd make up an excuse and leave her to deal with it on her own. he'd be lying if he said he didn't feel that urge now, but what he felt for buffy was stronger than what he had for the orion and that drove him to remain gazing up at her and to open his mouth and say more. ]

Do what? Babe, come down here. Talk to me.

Buffy's silent for a moment, with her eyes closed. She knows she should go down, and now she's tired. Beyond tired, and bruised both outside and in. She casts a last look at the barrier she can't see, but is now intimately familiar with, before descending slowly in the direction of her bedroom window. When she gets to the ledge, she climbs through, shutting the window behind her with a sort of finality, though she can't meet Kirk's eyes.

Kirk steps back to give her room to enter, discarding his tablet on a nearby table. He feels he should say something, especially since he wanted her to come back down and talk to him, but can't find the proper words. Instead of standing there awkwardly and internally debating, he goes to her and pulls her into his arms. Physical comfort will have to do until he can say something that doesn't sound foolish and out of place— better with actions than words, after all.

The hug is welcomed, very very welcomed. She leans against him, letting him take some of the weight off, metaphorically and literally. After a few steadying breaths she kind of has the tears under control.

"I found out where the Supergirl powers are coming from," she mumbles, finally.

Thankfully, she speaks first and spares him the humiliation of saying the wrong thing. It's better, he feels, that she's offering this up of her own accord and he's not coaxing it out of her. He'd rather he tell it to him because she wants to and not because he wants her to.

Kirk draws back enough to see her face, rubbing his palms up and down along her arms. "And?"

Sadly, her face is pretty much just despondent at the minute. Without the bizarre comfort of the sky barrier to beat the crap out of, she really has to think about everything.

"Other slayers," she answers, after that prompt. "Other dead slayers. I'm absorbing their strength after they die. Like a vampire."

It's obvious how repulsive she finds the idea by her expression, which isn't short on self-loathing.

You'll have to give him a minute, Buffy, as he's going to just sort of stare and blink as his scientific-inclined mind tries to make sense of what she just said. Power from dead slayers, absorbing them like a vampire. It...really isn't going to make as much sense to him as it does to people who are used to the supernatural, no matter how much he's warmed up to the world Buffy lives in. Acknowledging the existence of vampires and magic doesn't mean he understands how that all works.

He is, however, sympathetic. Very sympathetic to the implications of what's happening to her. Kirk can only imagine what knowing that your power is that which isn't yours and comes at the sacrifice of others is like.

"Oh, Buffy," he cups her cheek in one hand. "That's... Are you certain?"

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034: [ location : the sky ] the blues walked in and met me

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[ location: castle summers ] wow notifs, fail more please? ~_~

[ location: castle summers ] lj is a creature of lame

[ location: castle summers ] it really is sometimes.

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