oo6 | [accidental voice] | can't tell you anything

[shaneonyou.livejournal.com]

[ Not surprisingly at all, by now, some singing makes its way out over the tablets... it's not the best singing ever, but hey, he's decent. Shane sounds harried and a little nervous as he sings this, because dammit, he doesn't want to, but it's... therapeutic? Good thing he's alone... cough.]

What if I told you you were appetizing
... I mean, amazing.
What if I told you that I hunger for your...
... err, conversation.
What if I told you if I didn't know you,
I would attack you... with hugs,
but because it would be a mistake, I can't tell you anything.

What if I told you you seem so delicious
... ly fantastical?
What if I told you that I was longing to chew...
... se you as my friend?
What if I told you I wanted to taste your...
... famous lasagna for lunch,
but because it would be a mistake
I really can't tell you anything.

This song has nothing to do with me or how I feel,
or how much I want to chase you down an alley

Because friends do that sometimes, I mean... I...

Oh, god.

What if I told you I'm really sorry?
Because I... really am
What if I told you I'm just stupid and young?
Because I really am
What if I told you I'm working harder
and I think it's starting to help

I don't wanna make a mistake
I'm sorry I look at you like you're steak
But I'm more afraid to get staked so I won't tell you
I can't tell you --

Is this thing -- oh, my g --

I just... told... you... everything.

... Ugh.

(( AND HERE IS THE SONG, I wrote and recorded it myself after getting smacked in the face with it without warning. ENJOY.))

MiSTAKE by paintedbench

Comments

[sneersgenetic.livejournal.com]

Your standard judging rules, y'know, inherently evil, no souls— that sort of thing. You don't certainly don't sound evil, for what it's worth.

[shaneonyou.livejournal.com]

Uh... thanks. I think Cordy mentioned that, the no-souls thing. Do you know her?

[sneersgenetic.livejournal.com]

[ if that isn't the most awkward question ever. thank god for voice so shane can't see the panicked look on connor's face. ]

Yeah, I do. P-Pretty well, actually. We're from the same world. She's dating my dad.

[shaneonyou.livejournal.com]

Your... dad. Angel?

[ ... wait what. ]

How's that work?

[sneersgenetic.livejournal.com]

Angel, yeah. That's him. ...it's a long story and all sorts of complicated, but he's my dad in the dad-dad sense and not the sired sense. I'm only part-vampire, hence being the last person who should judge.

[shaneonyou.livejournal.com]

O... kay, I guess things really are different in other worlds. [ A pause, and then -- okay, Shane's just a curious puppy. ] So what's it like, being part-vampire? Where's the part come in?

[sneersgenetic.livejournal.com]

Not really, I'm just a product of very unique one-time circumstances.

[ that he's not about to detail, but he doesn't mind answering those two questions, even if he's not entirely sure himself just where the line between his human and vampire halves lies. thanks for that gap in canon, joss ]

It's kinda like being a superhero, I guess. All the pluses, none of the minuses. Strong, fast, heightened senses, heal fast... Not harmed by sunlight or crosses or anything like that, though. And I don't drink blood.

[shaneonyou.livejournal.com]

... Jeez, that sounds like a pretty good deal, huh?

[sneersgenetic.livejournal.com]

Guess it makes up for being the freak child of two vampires.

[ connor, you are not supposed to mention darla. ]