007 [Voice: Locked to the Supernatural Crew] Canon Bump Part 2

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

How much do you know, Dean?

Castiel? How long have you known? Always?

And Dad...I don't even know where to begin. You knew for...years, didn't you?

I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to and I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought-

[His voice breaks off a second before he clears his throat and continues]

I'm sorry. I know that doesn't even begin to fix this but I don't know how. I don't-You were right, Dean. I'm a monster.

...Mom

I'm just sorry.

Comments

[voice]

[caelitus.livejournal.com]

[... he takes a minute to answer.]

Yes.

Re: [voice]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

Okay

[he takes a deep, noisy breath]

Was it like Job or...what?

[caelitus.livejournal.com]

We weren't allowed to intervene.

[voice]

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

[Dean starts with a very firm voice, almost angry.]

You are not a monster, Sam.

[voice]

[ditchabledate.livejournal.com]

[Heaping helping of 'bzuh?']

...Did I miss somethin'?

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

But the world is ending now because of me and I never wanted that. Aren't you guys supposed to stop that?

Re: [voice]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

[It takes Sam several seconds to respond, trying to figure out when Dean is from]

You have no idea, Dean. You're going to change your mind...when you know.

Re: [voice]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, Bobby. So much.

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

When I know what?

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

I screwed up so bad Dean.

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

Fuck, Sam, just tell me what happened. [Dean's irritation is mostly out of apprehension; he doesn't like being out of the loop.]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

On the map, you can see where I am. There's an abandoned building not far from here. I'll--I'll meet you there. I don't want to-it's-just...

I'm sorry, Dean.

[Location: abandoned building]

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

Stop apologizing. [Dean says shortly, already on his way. He wasn't far from Sam anyway, having been headed towards him the moment he'd heard the voice broadcast.] I'll be right there.

[And be right there he is; with the rate he's going, it doesn't take all that long to show up at the building Sam had mentioned, and look around for his brother.]

Re: [Location: abandoned building]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

Sam takes a little longer to get there, showing up after Dean. He walks into the building, staring at his feet more than anything. He takes careful, shuffling steps toward Dean, unable to meet his brother's gaze.

Sorry, Dean it's going to take some prodding to tell what he knows.

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

That actually is sort of freaking Dean out. While Sam takes slow steps, Dean's steps are quick and hurried as he makes his way over. The way Sam is acting, isn't looking Dean in the eye? Not good. And Dean knows it, knows something is wrong.

Grabbing Sam's upper arms with both hands, Dean gives Sam a gentle shake and tries to peer up and catch Sam's gaze.

"Sammy. Talk to me."

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

Sam meets his eyes for a second before looking away. "Remember when Dad told you to kill me?" he asks in a quiet, scratchy voice.

"You should have listened to him."

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

Dean resists the urge to shake Sam harder, but he does keep his hands in place and he keeps a steady gaze on Sam's face, even though his little brother's looking in a different direction.

"Yeah? Why's that?" Dean asks as calmly as possible, and it's hard to hear, but pay close attention and the slight hint of panic in his voice is apparent.

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

Sam's actually glad that Dean's hands are still on his arms. He doesn't hear the panic in Dean's voice but that's because he's trying to figure out how to tell his brother what's happened.

"It's my fault," he answers, not entirely coherent sounding. "They're all going to die and it's my fault."

Yes details would be nice but Sam's not terribly forthcoming with them at the moment.

[fudgingkillyou.livejournal.com]

It takes all the patience in the world, but Dean manages not to start shouting. Instead, he takes a deep breath, and relaxes himself. Freaking out himself will only make Sam more upset, and it won't help things.

"Who's gonna die?" Dean asks, squeezing Sam's arms a bit in reassurance. "C'mon, Sammy. Work with me here. I need to know what happened."

[caelitus.livejournal.com]

[... Sighs.]

We are to do as we are told, Sam.

[-- hold up] Lilith was successful?

[ditchabledate.livejournal.com]

Aww, Sam. I know somethin' ain't right but I can't do anything 'less you get to details.

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

Sam sorta slumps in a bit of defeat. "66 seals to start the apocalypse. The not a, not oops we opened the gate to Hell. I broke the last one. I didn't mean to and I didn't want to but--"

He stops and swallows tears and emotion, trying to finish his thought.

"I don't even know if it's the worse thing I did. You were so disappointed and so angry. You said I was a monster and you're right."

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

The last seal, Bobby...I broke it. All the things they said about me. They're true. They come true.

[}It's easier to tell now maybe because in part he's told Dean. Also he doesn't have to give Bobby details. The man is smart enough to figure them out]

[notantichrist.livejournal.com]

[hesitates because he thinks maybe telling an angel this stuff is sort of like reporting back to God and once he does that he's not sure if it can be taken back. On one level he realizes it's a ridiculous idea but it's still there regardless of how ridiculous it is]

I-don't know? I killed her and the seal...Lucifer is coming. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to and I thought I was saving the world. I thought she was going to break it and if I killed her then she couldn't break it. I thought I was doing the right thing. She broke all those other seals so...I'm sorry.

[ditchabledate.livejournal.com]

[long-ass pause, because what the hell?] You what? How the hell'd you-- [Bobby finally puts two and two together, assuming Sam got out of Taxon and that it was similar to time travel, there and back again in minutes] No, we locked you up! No way you escaped!